Rrrr...

I have been working with a trainer at my gym for a while now. I already had to switch from one trainer to another once and now i found out a week ago that my current trainer was promoted to the head trainer at the gym...in Lafayette. So i tried going back to my original trainer, but i was frustrated because he doesn't know where i am or listen to me. I called my old trainer, who said that he would be in town ever other weekend and we could train together then and he'd email me and tell me what to do during the week. But that didn't happen. And he just canceled on me for tomorrow.

So i'm extremely frustrated and disappointed (because i LOVED training with him). I feel let down and discouraged and worried that i'm not going to be able to do it on my own and i'm going to backtrack... I feel like my trainer deserted me and then blew me off and, frankly, it makes me want to give up.

I know that i shouldn't depend on one person that much, but what can i say? I get attatched to people in all areas of my life, including at the gym...

So i have been doing a TON of planning for our wedding. I guess i've surprised a lot of people, or so i've heard, with how much i have one already, but that's how i am with things i'm excited about. And i was really excited to start planning our wedding!!!

At this point we have the date (Friday September 11th, 2009), the minister (Jenni Crowley), and the reception (and possible ceremony) venue that is absolutely gorgeous!!! I've also gone to three stores to try on wedding dresses. So far there's nothing i'm ready to buy, but i'm definitely getting a feel for what i like and what looks good on me.

With all of that going on and starting second semester at school last week, things have been really stressful. So my new rule of thumb to keep in mind when i'm planning is:

DO have fun. It might be more work when you DIY or have to really search and barter, but the fact is it's not just one day! It can be a whole little journey where you connect with your family and friends and rediscover just how exciting it can be to say "I Love You!"

Do you know that in Judaism, your wedding starts the moment that you get engaged, and only ends a year after your wedding? I love this, because for me the process has been so enlightening, and the journey is perhaps as important as the destination.

-taken from A Practical Wedding who took it from Mama's Getting Married

And as much as i don't want to worry about what i look like for my wedding, i am not happy with myself at the moment. That's not to say that i'm unhappy, just that i could be happier with myself. I would love to be able to say that i was in "the best shape of my life" when i got married, but that's going to take some work... So i talked to my trainer today and we are going to try working out four times a week for a half-hour instead of the two times a week for an hour that i've been doing. We're also going to work on what i'm eating because i haven't been watching that very well. (Of course as i say this i'm eating chips and salsa for dinner...)

Anyway, i know how i am and i know that if i write about it i'll be more likely to stick to it and to let go of some of the stress i'm feeling. As it is, i'm feeling better about all of the stuff i need to get done because i got to write about all the stuff i have gotten done. And of course the wedding that i'm looking forward to!!!

Wonderful weekend

This weekend has been busy, but good. On Friday i went and worked out since i have to start doing more cardio according to my trainer. Then Andy and i spent some date time together, which we haven't done in a while. I love getting dressed up and spending time with Andy. We treated ourselves to dinner at Carrabba's. Mmm... We were being really good and weren't going to get dessert but they have those new tiny desserts that come in shot glasses. It's hard to say you don't have room for that since it's so tiny;)

On Saturday i cleaned my apartment, went to Goodwill because they were having a 50% off sale, and then worked out again. This time i had to lift weights, which was so weird since the only other people in that part of the gym were two guys who look like they weightlift for a living. Just a little intimidating. But i got through it so it's okay. Then Andy and i went over to my parents to see Sarah who was home for the weekend. The three of us and my mom went to the Children's Museum. I haven't been there in YEARS and it was so much fun. The Chihuly glass piece that they have there was probably the best part, especially the glass ceiling on the bottom floor where you can lay on a rotating piece of furniture and look at all of the handblown glass pieces there. Way cool.

And today has been all churchy, starting with Sunday school with Bill and then continuing with a bridal shower for Chris. I got to talk to a bunch of people i don't usually have time to talk to so that was really, really nice.

Overall, i had a great weekend. But now i'm annoyed because the people who moved in cattycorner (how do you spell that word???) from me are being loud. Argh. I hate is having neighbors who are loud enough that i can't have my windows open without listening to every word they're saying, especially since the weather's still nice.

Working out worked!

For some reason, i was really stressed out over the three day weekend. I know. It's the weekend. I'm not supposed to be stressed. But i was doing a lot of things that, although they were fun, also meant i didn't have a lot of time to relax. To add to that, every time i went to sleep i was having really vivid dreams about school where i would be totally stressed out, even in my dreams!!!

School today was a little better because at least i was getting back into the grind, but by the end of the day i was exhausted and frustrated with some of my students. As cliche as it sounds, it all got better after i worked out! I wasn't even sure that i wanted to go to they gym today. I figured maybe it would be a better use of my time to sleep, but i didn't want to stand my trainer up, especially because i did that last week... Whoops! But i went and felt so energized that i actually spent 25 minutes on the elliptical after i worked out with my trainer.

I know that it doesn't really sound like a big thing, but it totally was for me because i've been so stressed and tense and i was finally able to relax tonight. Yay!